pettiness

sometimes this life feels like a dream and i wish i would
wake up from this surreal life.
many times i'll be walking through crowds of people and
it's so easy to feel so small and insignificant. falling out
would be so simple. getting lost and swallowed up by
the anonymity of it all seems so enticing sometimes.

but there is always a greater purpose...

i'm glad i'm not in control

for a moment there, i thought i was supposed to be with someone...
but no, and now i'm having my doubts. i couldn't relinquish that trust.
i wasn't prepared for that huge leap of faith. it was a little too out of
control for me, too far away from my comfort zone.

and to accompany that awkward and frightening feeling, i've been
having strange dreams which doesn't get me anywhere.

so in all honesty, where does all this uncertainty leave me?
i think i'm just a little relieved that things didn't go the way i imagined.

at the beginning...

a new place for new thoughts...