2009... really?

time... where art thou going? why hasn't thou taken me with you?

i don't like change and quite frankly, the feeling might be mutual. right now, i'm substitute teaching in different public school districts and it's been a change. not that i don't like it, but i've sort of been thrown into the whole thing, which i guess is a good way (especially for me) to begin things. it's been a little bit stressful too because i'm so used to being prepared and having some idea what will be happening that day, what i'll be teaching, but with substitute teaching that isn't the story. i get maybe 30 minutes to look over what will be supposedly take place that day. but i'm sure i'll get the hang of it once i've been doing it long enough. it has been an adjustment though.

i'm slowly beginning to realize what God's mercy and grace is all about. He's shown me that my past doesn't compare to what i have now. i'm learning so much about my own resiliency and to be thankful for what i'm blessed with. i need to stop worrying about petty stuff and to stop overthinking because i know it'll eventually drive me crazy.

forever is kinda scary...



lately i've been thinking,
lately i've been dreaming of you...

my old ghosts still haunt me.