sad small world

incidents that've happened last month have shaken this seemingly picture-perfcet snowglobe earth i live in and everything is sort of blurry. i don't know how i feel about it the incidents: a death of a co-worker and the rape of a neighbor by someone known to me.

rachael worked in the same room as i did at the daycare center. i had just gotten to know her ever since the summer started. she was one of those girls who liked to have a good time, she liked driving her motorcycle, and she enjoyed working with little kids. in the end, maybe the company she kept didn't do her any good because a car accident ended all of that. supposedly there was drugs involved, but it's not clear yet.

either way, it was a total shock, a punch in the stomach. i couldn't breathe when i first heard the news. the entire week was really weird, topsy turvy, like my legs were made of jello while i was trapped in an alternate reality. gradually, things have gotten better and back to normal but i still think about her every time i hear a motorcycle whiz by.

more shocking news about a girl in my neighborhood (the next street over) being raped during the morning in the middle of the week. what was more disturbing is the news that i am familiar with the perpetrator who broke into the house that morning. and even more chilling, this (current knowledge) had been going on for at least 6 years to several different girls.

it just goes to show how very broken this world really is. it's literally trying to fill a god-shaped hole with indulgent sin. it's also eye-opening to know what goes on behind closed doors in people's personal lives. the choices we make affect others more than we know.