looking into the crystal ball

i've been having doubts about wanting to be a teacher. i think the part where i have to get up in front of the class to teach scares the living daylights out of me. i don't know why it has this frenzied sort of effect on me, but it's so paralyzing that i had a stomach ache a while after i finished teaching a lesson. and the night before, i had a hard time falling asleep.

one of the reasons why i wanted to become a teacher was to overcome my fear of public speaking. you know what they say, "if you want to overcome your fear, you have to face it." i just wish it had a prettier face...

i've been thinking a lot about the future and what i'll be doing next year. to be quite frank, i have no idea what i want to do or where i'll be. i had thought it would be nice to go ahead and get my doctorate, but i don't know about that. i do know i want to get out of this state and want to experience a change of scenery so that 1) i can be away from home, away from here for a little bit 2) meet new people and maybe even find myself a mate :) seriously.

i'd like to know what else god has in store for me outside of ohio and i'm willing to let him show me.