i'm glad i'm not in control

for a moment there, i thought i was supposed to be with someone...
but no, and now i'm having my doubts. i couldn't relinquish that trust.
i wasn't prepared for that huge leap of faith. it was a little too out of
control for me, too far away from my comfort zone.

and to accompany that awkward and frightening feeling, i've been
having strange dreams which doesn't get me anywhere.

so in all honesty, where does all this uncertainty leave me?
i think i'm just a little relieved that things didn't go the way i imagined.